Just got home from a trip yesterday and boy, it was tiring hahaha. Well, acaranya adalah outing fakultas selama 3 hari. Ada jurit malam, hiking, dan games. Very standard imo, but there's this one game that's hell fun. The game's name was 'save your life'. Intinya sih kita cmn perlu melindungi api lilin dari serangan2 air para senior. Itu asik banget lol.
But anyhow, selama sekitar sebulan gw gk nge-entry blog ini, ada beberapa hal yang terjadi. Yang pertama adalah gw membaca salah 1 komik favorit gw, Wild Life vol. 24. Di buku itu ada 1 cerita tambahan dengan syair yang keeeereeeen abis. Tapi sayang, gw lupa catet isinya. Nanti klo gw baca lagi, gw catet deh :P. Well, setelah baca itu, kecintaan gw terhadap tata bahasa bangkit kembali. Dan gw mencoba untuk membuat tweet2 gw rhyme. Cukup sulit sih karena membuat tweet2 gw terkesan galau dan menemukan kata2 yang berima itu ga muadh hahaha. But it was fun.
Aside from that, gw sempat berdebat dgn banyak orang karena permasalahan nilai as in school grades. Intinya, orang2 nyuruh gw belajar paling nggak buat nilai di kampus supaya gw tetep lulus n menerima peraturan yg ada di kampus. Gw ngerti klo utk kelulusan, tapi sayangnya, di mindset gw sudah tertanam bahwa gw gk peduli dgn kelulusan dan cmn peduli terhadap kemampuan gw. Sialnya, ada aja org2 yg sengaja mw mempermalukan gw pdhl jelas2 kemampuan gw di atas mereka. Sigh.. but oh well, them humiliating me won't change a thing. Though honestly, it does affect me a bit.
Then there's also this thing bugging me. Its my emotion's development. Gw gk tw apa gw memang selalu seperti ini tapi gw gk sadar ato gk ada suatu dorongan dari lingkungan gw untuk memunculkan bagian yg ini, ato gw emg berubah, but anyways, gw ngerasa kalo gw semakin temperamental, mudah kesal, dan semakin nyolot. Selama outing itu, gw pasti ngerasa kesel di titik2 tertentu. Terutama karena ada cewek yg sok ngatur2 pdhl cengeng dsb. But that doesn't matter does it? I really have to learn control over my emotion and learn to accept or at least, laugh things off. Hahaha
And last, I met this girl who I can say passed all of my criteria. But sadly, this man who is so arrogant, who is able to speak in front of public, try new things, confront people, try doing breakthroughs, and other gutsy things wasn't able to speak to her. Lame isn't it? Dude, where's your courage?
