Last vacation, I went to the Vipassana meditation camp again, and unlike last year's, this one is easier for me to handle despite the slight stress I experienced. Dan camp kali ini, cukup produktif karena gw menyadari beberapa hal.
Yg pertama adalah bagaimana ternyata gw selama ini masih mendendam sama beberapa org karena udh merusak masa kecil gw lol. Well yeah, long story short, gw skrg sedang berusaha untuk menerima dan memaafkan mereka. After all, they made me what I am now.
Selain itu gw jg realized how some people really meant to me and how they've helped me so much. And taught me many things. Seperti bagaimana a woman I liked broke my heart and secara tidak langsung mengajarkan gw bagaimana cara untuk hidup dan bagaimana friends like Brandon and Wisely have helped me through so much.
Dan hari ini, gw masuk lg ke uni. Dan hari ini lumayan menyusahkan dan stressful. Filsafat, sebuah pelajaran yang penting dan ga penting bgt. Bertele2 dan bikin pusing. Ditambah lagi dengan keadaan diri gw yg lumayan tertekan karena Pak Monty, seorang dosen yang sebenarnya hebat, menolak request gw akan presentasi dia dengan tegas. "Nggak! Catet!" He said. Entah kenapa, gw secara tidak langsung tersentak dan tertekan. Di satu sisi, gw agak kecewa karena dia seharusnya tau bagaimana beberapa org bsa belajar lebih baik secara visual atau audio. Dan dia nggak melihat itu. Selain itu, gw jg entah mengapa, menjadi sangat peduli terhadap nilai, padahal, I'm there to study how to be a psychologist. Not how to be a good student.
Memang sih, dia ada benernya jg. Dengan mencatat, gw bsa belajar dgn lbh baik jg bila gw mampu menulis point2 pentingnya. Masalahnya adalah, di presentasi dia, kebanyakan adalah sejarah yg menurut gw gk sepenting itu dan hanya garis besar akan jenis2 psikologi yang berhasil gw mengerti secara langsung dan sangat tidak detail. Well, seenggaknya, dengan gw ke ruangan dia tdi, I had more grasp of what these forms of psychology are. But yeah, something is still bothering and pressured me a bit. Oh well, I'll just have to apply what I learnt. Embrace these feelings, understanding how it'll not last forever and live on. :D
Btw, one thing I really hate about blogging: I kept on losing the feel when I was about to write it. Hahahaha
Kamis, 23 Agustus 2012
Senin, 13 Agustus 2012
Lies Oh Lies
A few days ago, I decided to court her and well, i got rejected lol. Sebenernya sih, gw udh siap buat di tolak, and so, as a result, gw gk terlalu sakit hati. But then, there's one problem. In her rejection, she mentioned how we can still be FRIENDS. And guess what? She didn't even bother to read my reply to her rejection.
Jujur, penolakannya sih gk seberapa. Tapi ignorancenya itu.. It hurted me quite a lot. And yeah, gw punya hak untuk marah. I mean, look. Dia bilang mau tetep temenan, tapi malah ga peduli akan reply gw. Apakah itu yang namanya 'STILL BE FRIENDS'? Gw cukup sedih. Dan gw pengen entah gimana caranya, nunjukin apa yang telah dia lakukan. Tapi, oh well, ga ada artinya juga sih lol.
Well, I do the right to be angry and stuff, but then, it'll be an endless cycle of misery. Lagipula, it'll only result me being more sad and think about her again and again and again. Ga ada untungnya. Mending gw enjoy my life and have the time of my life.
Besides my university is really great. I get to learn psychology which I'm very passionate about and I also met a very fine lady in my univ. lol. Oh well, let's just see what will happen next :P
Jujur, penolakannya sih gk seberapa. Tapi ignorancenya itu.. It hurted me quite a lot. And yeah, gw punya hak untuk marah. I mean, look. Dia bilang mau tetep temenan, tapi malah ga peduli akan reply gw. Apakah itu yang namanya 'STILL BE FRIENDS'? Gw cukup sedih. Dan gw pengen entah gimana caranya, nunjukin apa yang telah dia lakukan. Tapi, oh well, ga ada artinya juga sih lol.
Well, I do the right to be angry and stuff, but then, it'll be an endless cycle of misery. Lagipula, it'll only result me being more sad and think about her again and again and again. Ga ada untungnya. Mending gw enjoy my life and have the time of my life.
Besides my university is really great. I get to learn psychology which I'm very passionate about and I also met a very fine lady in my univ. lol. Oh well, let's just see what will happen next :P
Sabtu, 21 Juli 2012
Spoiler Alert!
Well, this time, I won't write much aside from the review of The Dark Knight Rises (TDKR) and compare the villain the main villains.
In the beginning of TDKR, Batman had to fight a villain named Bane. A disciple of Ra's Al-Ghul, Batman's mentor, who's plan is to destroy Gotham for good.
Well, Bane's persona, as far as I can see and remember, resembles the combination of both Joker and Ra's Al-Ghul. His desire to bring destruction to Batman as an individual as well as Gotham and his ability to 'control' the mass' is pretty similar to Joker although it seems to be a bit inferior, as his method of achieving them is via brute force. Which was Ra's Al-Ghul's path towards Gotham's destruction. He was able to bring Batman into his downfall by beating him into a half-death condition and tortured him by showing the destruction of Gotham. However, this was possible because he had his hands on a nuclear bomb.
The usage of Bane as Batman's nemesis in TDKR successfully improved the 'action' in the movie and added the taste of 'complexity'. Overall, I'd say this movie deserves a 8.5/10. Oh btw, that was based on the villain only. If all of the aspects such as the story line and the portrayal of other characters are counted, I'd give a 9.5/10. But I don't want to spoil too much lol.
Now, the comparison between Bane and Joker. As I've mentioned before, Bane successfully took control of Gotham by oppression. He was able to bring despair into Batman by beating him in a hand to hand combat and showed that Batman stood no chance. This was possible because Batman had 'retired' for years and wasn't able to unleash his maximum combat potential. Bane in different ways, can be pictured as Gotham's version of Hitler.
Joker, on the other hand, used almost no brute force. What he did was simple. Manipulating the truth and bring doom to Batman's state of mind as well as the city. He was able to destroy Gotham's only hope, Harvey Dent, by dragging him into the dark side and turn him into a murderous villain. He managed to totally twist the meaning of good and bad and made people dance on his hands just like puppets.
As for Ra's Al-Ghul.. nevermind him. It's been quite a while since I last watched Batman Begins and I don't feel like writing anymore lol. Anyways, I prefer Joker out of the 3 villains as he nearly destroyed the city almost without being involved directly.
Btw, I know some of the wordings are off and not as good as other reviewers. But bear with it. I'm not a professional reviewer and I've lost a lot of my vocabularies and I've never been that rich in it to begin with lol.
In the beginning of TDKR, Batman had to fight a villain named Bane. A disciple of Ra's Al-Ghul, Batman's mentor, who's plan is to destroy Gotham for good.
Well, Bane's persona, as far as I can see and remember, resembles the combination of both Joker and Ra's Al-Ghul. His desire to bring destruction to Batman as an individual as well as Gotham and his ability to 'control' the mass' is pretty similar to Joker although it seems to be a bit inferior, as his method of achieving them is via brute force. Which was Ra's Al-Ghul's path towards Gotham's destruction. He was able to bring Batman into his downfall by beating him into a half-death condition and tortured him by showing the destruction of Gotham. However, this was possible because he had his hands on a nuclear bomb.
The usage of Bane as Batman's nemesis in TDKR successfully improved the 'action' in the movie and added the taste of 'complexity'. Overall, I'd say this movie deserves a 8.5/10. Oh btw, that was based on the villain only. If all of the aspects such as the story line and the portrayal of other characters are counted, I'd give a 9.5/10. But I don't want to spoil too much lol.
Now, the comparison between Bane and Joker. As I've mentioned before, Bane successfully took control of Gotham by oppression. He was able to bring despair into Batman by beating him in a hand to hand combat and showed that Batman stood no chance. This was possible because Batman had 'retired' for years and wasn't able to unleash his maximum combat potential. Bane in different ways, can be pictured as Gotham's version of Hitler.
Joker, on the other hand, used almost no brute force. What he did was simple. Manipulating the truth and bring doom to Batman's state of mind as well as the city. He was able to destroy Gotham's only hope, Harvey Dent, by dragging him into the dark side and turn him into a murderous villain. He managed to totally twist the meaning of good and bad and made people dance on his hands just like puppets.
As for Ra's Al-Ghul.. nevermind him. It's been quite a while since I last watched Batman Begins and I don't feel like writing anymore lol. Anyways, I prefer Joker out of the 3 villains as he nearly destroyed the city almost without being involved directly.
Btw, I know some of the wordings are off and not as good as other reviewers. But bear with it. I'm not a professional reviewer and I've lost a lot of my vocabularies and I've never been that rich in it to begin with lol.
Jumat, 13 Juli 2012
Food for thought
Don't expect things.
It may not be the way you're seeing it.
It might just be a delusion.
You might be wrong.
Just live on.
It may not be the way you're seeing it.
It might just be a delusion.
You might be wrong.
Just live on.
Kamis, 12 Juli 2012
The Revelation
And so, it has begun. The revelation. Yang dalam bahasa Indonesia artinya.. gw lupa kata yang bener2 tepat buat ngartiinya lol. Anyways, iya, gw udah berhasil move on. Walau emang terkadang muncul potongan2 ingatan, udh gk ada perasaan yang tersisa lagi. Kalaupun ada, sangat sedikit dan hampir tidak terasa. Ditambah lagi, sekarang, gw telah menemukan seorang yang spesial lagi. Dan tentunya, lebih spesial dari sebelumnya :D
Semua yang telah gw lalui ini, bener2 telah menjadi pelajaran yang sangat berharga. Dari heartbreak, sampe moving on. Gw tengah berubah dan gw sudah melihat hasil dari perubahan tersebut. Gw menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik. Dan gw bener2 bahagia.
Walau, ada 1 hal yang mengganggu gw sih. Dia blg klo cmn bsa temenan aja. Tapi pas gw coba ngobrol sedikit sama dia, cuman biar kalo ketemu lgi gk terlalu awkward, dia malah berusaha bwat end the chat ASAP. But oh well, I don't care that much.
Anyways, yeah, as I've mentioned, gw bertemu kembali dengan seorang yang sangat spesial. Dia adalah orang yang bisa disebut sebagai cinta pertama gua kali ya? HAHAHAH. So yeah, gw dulu emg sempet suka sama dia untuk waktu yang lama. 3 tahun kalo gw gk salah inget. Dan di saat itu, dia bener2 ga peduli sama gw. What can I say? I was a lossy guy. Gw bahkan ga pernah ngobrol sama dia dan gw tiba2 confess. It was stupid.. But well, things change. Sekarang gw sama dia udah deket. Dan yang lebih ajaibnya, gw dan dia itu tiba2 jadi deket dalam waktu kurang dari sebulan. I care for her and I'm sure she cares as well. Although it will probably be a long distance since she's studying abroad, if things go smooth that is, it will worth it. I'm sure.
Semua yang telah gw lalui ini, bener2 telah menjadi pelajaran yang sangat berharga. Dari heartbreak, sampe moving on. Gw tengah berubah dan gw sudah melihat hasil dari perubahan tersebut. Gw menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik. Dan gw bener2 bahagia.
Walau, ada 1 hal yang mengganggu gw sih. Dia blg klo cmn bsa temenan aja. Tapi pas gw coba ngobrol sedikit sama dia, cuman biar kalo ketemu lgi gk terlalu awkward, dia malah berusaha bwat end the chat ASAP. But oh well, I don't care that much.
Anyways, yeah, as I've mentioned, gw bertemu kembali dengan seorang yang sangat spesial. Dia adalah orang yang bisa disebut sebagai cinta pertama gua kali ya? HAHAHAH. So yeah, gw dulu emg sempet suka sama dia untuk waktu yang lama. 3 tahun kalo gw gk salah inget. Dan di saat itu, dia bener2 ga peduli sama gw. What can I say? I was a lossy guy. Gw bahkan ga pernah ngobrol sama dia dan gw tiba2 confess. It was stupid.. But well, things change. Sekarang gw sama dia udah deket. Dan yang lebih ajaibnya, gw dan dia itu tiba2 jadi deket dalam waktu kurang dari sebulan. I care for her and I'm sure she cares as well. Although it will probably be a long distance since she's studying abroad, if things go smooth that is, it will worth it. I'm sure.
Sabtu, 23 Juni 2012
Another Realization
Well, udah lumayan lama ya semenjak gw terakhir ngepost hahaha. I had no topics and no will to write lol. Anyways, beberapa hari kemarin, gw mempelajari sesuatu lagi. Ada dua hal yang menurut gw penting and worth noted.
First, it's by being strong. Beberapa hari yang lalu, memori2 gw sempet nongol lagi n gw galau abis. Tapi di saat yang sama, gw sadar akan bagaimana menjadi kuat yang sesungguhnya. Kebanyakan orang, ketika menghadapi masalah, especially problems that they can't solve, often leads to defending themselves by 'plating their heart with an armor'. Orang biasanya mencoba untuk melupakan dan menganggapnya tidak pernah terjadi dan bila masalah yang sama timbul, mereka bersembunyi dan melarikan diri. Memang sekilas, kita bsa merasa tenang dan tidak memiliki masalah. But then, it's just an armor. It might break and you might remove it when you're not aware. So, ujung2nya, bila armor itu kelepas, you will be vulnerable and weak.
Gw sadar kalau untuk menjadi kuat yang sesungguhnya, seseorang itu harus bisa menerima kenyataan. Ini akan sangat menyakitkan. Ibaratnya, perasaan kita itu diiris2 pake piso. Namun, metabolisme tubuh itu hebat sekali. Setiap suatu bagian terluka, tubuh akan meregenerasi bagian itu dan disaat yang sama, memperkuat bagian tubuh yang terluka tersebut. Contoh, ketika kita jatuh dan kulit kita terkelupas, seiring waktu, itu akan sembuh. Dan bila kulit kita memang sering terkelupas, kulit itu akan menjadi lebih tebal dan akan sulit terluka. Well, menurut gw, inilah kuat yang sesungguhnya. You need to temper yourself by healing yourself from the pain, strengthen your heart, and learn from it.
Pelajaran kedua baru saja gw terima kemaren. Kebetulan, laptop gw berada di kantor n kantor dikunci. So, gw gk bsa main deh. Karena itu, as a resort to sooth my boredom, gw ke kamar ade gw dan mencari buku yang bisa gw baca. Dan gw menemukan buku berjudul 'Chicken Soup for the Soul' yang merupakan sebuah komik yang bercerita tentang kejadian2 yang mengandung cerita moral.
Long story short, gw menyadari kalau gw harus belajar untuk melihat suatu permasalahan dari sisi yang benar2 berbeda. Jadi, ada cerita tentang seorang anak yang numpahin susu satu botol besar. Ibunya yang liat, nggak marah. Malah, dia minta anaknya buat maen2 sama susu yang udh tumpah itu. Bener2 ngajarin sang anak kreatifitas. Setelah itu, si ibu minta anaknya bersihin susu yang udh tumpah untuk belajar tanggung jawab. And lastly, anaknya diajarin cara memegang botol susu yang benar biar gk tumpah lagi di lain waktu. Benar2 membuka pikiran gw. Mudah2an gw gk akan lupa.
Dan satu lagi yang gw pelajari dari buku itu. Jadi orang baik bukanlah hal yang buruk. Belajar berbagi kebahagiaan dan membantu orang lain yang membutuhkan. Contoh yang diberkan adalah bagaimana cuman dengan membayar tol untuk mobil2 di belakang itu bsa bkin hari2 org menjadi lebih cerah. Atau memberikan buket bunga ke seseorang yang nggak dikenal dan hal2 kecil lainnya.
Hopefully, I won't forget this precious lessons and become a man that people look up to who will be able to change people's life and cheer everyone up :D
First, it's by being strong. Beberapa hari yang lalu, memori2 gw sempet nongol lagi n gw galau abis. Tapi di saat yang sama, gw sadar akan bagaimana menjadi kuat yang sesungguhnya. Kebanyakan orang, ketika menghadapi masalah, especially problems that they can't solve, often leads to defending themselves by 'plating their heart with an armor'. Orang biasanya mencoba untuk melupakan dan menganggapnya tidak pernah terjadi dan bila masalah yang sama timbul, mereka bersembunyi dan melarikan diri. Memang sekilas, kita bsa merasa tenang dan tidak memiliki masalah. But then, it's just an armor. It might break and you might remove it when you're not aware. So, ujung2nya, bila armor itu kelepas, you will be vulnerable and weak.
Gw sadar kalau untuk menjadi kuat yang sesungguhnya, seseorang itu harus bisa menerima kenyataan. Ini akan sangat menyakitkan. Ibaratnya, perasaan kita itu diiris2 pake piso. Namun, metabolisme tubuh itu hebat sekali. Setiap suatu bagian terluka, tubuh akan meregenerasi bagian itu dan disaat yang sama, memperkuat bagian tubuh yang terluka tersebut. Contoh, ketika kita jatuh dan kulit kita terkelupas, seiring waktu, itu akan sembuh. Dan bila kulit kita memang sering terkelupas, kulit itu akan menjadi lebih tebal dan akan sulit terluka. Well, menurut gw, inilah kuat yang sesungguhnya. You need to temper yourself by healing yourself from the pain, strengthen your heart, and learn from it.
Pelajaran kedua baru saja gw terima kemaren. Kebetulan, laptop gw berada di kantor n kantor dikunci. So, gw gk bsa main deh. Karena itu, as a resort to sooth my boredom, gw ke kamar ade gw dan mencari buku yang bisa gw baca. Dan gw menemukan buku berjudul 'Chicken Soup for the Soul' yang merupakan sebuah komik yang bercerita tentang kejadian2 yang mengandung cerita moral.
Long story short, gw menyadari kalau gw harus belajar untuk melihat suatu permasalahan dari sisi yang benar2 berbeda. Jadi, ada cerita tentang seorang anak yang numpahin susu satu botol besar. Ibunya yang liat, nggak marah. Malah, dia minta anaknya buat maen2 sama susu yang udh tumpah itu. Bener2 ngajarin sang anak kreatifitas. Setelah itu, si ibu minta anaknya bersihin susu yang udh tumpah untuk belajar tanggung jawab. And lastly, anaknya diajarin cara memegang botol susu yang benar biar gk tumpah lagi di lain waktu. Benar2 membuka pikiran gw. Mudah2an gw gk akan lupa.
Dan satu lagi yang gw pelajari dari buku itu. Jadi orang baik bukanlah hal yang buruk. Belajar berbagi kebahagiaan dan membantu orang lain yang membutuhkan. Contoh yang diberkan adalah bagaimana cuman dengan membayar tol untuk mobil2 di belakang itu bsa bkin hari2 org menjadi lebih cerah. Atau memberikan buket bunga ke seseorang yang nggak dikenal dan hal2 kecil lainnya.
Hopefully, I won't forget this precious lessons and become a man that people look up to who will be able to change people's life and cheer everyone up :D
Jumat, 01 Juni 2012
Final Field Trip
This post here will be dedicated to my last field trip experience in high school hahaha. Well, kemarin dan hari ini, gw pergi ke pulau tidung sama sekolah gw. Acaranya sih seru. Ada game2 yg agak susah dijelasin dan Banana Boat. Basically, it was really fun. Had a great time with my friends. Although the accommodation was shitty hahahaha. Kapal super sempit dan villa yang berAC tp gk ada selimut. Dingin abissss.
And uh.. Gw agak mabok nih nulisnya. After effect abis naek kapal pas pulang td hahaha. Besides, I kinda forget the important lesson that I wanted to write. So, I guess I'll end it here. Maybe tomorrow I'll post something more useful if I found it hahahah.
And uh.. Gw agak mabok nih nulisnya. After effect abis naek kapal pas pulang td hahaha. Besides, I kinda forget the important lesson that I wanted to write. So, I guess I'll end it here. Maybe tomorrow I'll post something more useful if I found it hahahah.
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